start holiday....liao...hurray

its a good time for me to totally rest my mind..although it jz one week short break ..but it is better than no holiday..all of my coursemates go back to their hometown and what i am going to do? do someone have any plans for me?(ya, my lecturers have plans for me--that are lots of homework...)


2day watched d the proposal, it was totally a great movie as it reflect our lives..its jz funny and interesting...if u havent watch it jz go and watch it and u will really enjoy it..

2night we went to hv a surprise birthday celebration for vicky..and yet this made me felt like i am really old..18 n half years old...omg....and yet i am here 4 4 n half mths without going back to my hometown..i still alive although there are many life challenges that i faced for d past 4 n half mths...hahaha

i felt i am old already

sometime i cannot accept what my coursemates thinking mind.. and i think the gap between them and me getting bigger and bigger like we are in the different century.. i think i dun hv that kind of easy going and excited and energetic heart anymore.. and i dun like them have nothing to worry about their life...i need to worry from time to time in every aspects.. and yet i think i am not young already need to think about the future and not only thinking of what is going on today....

and sometime i really thought that coursemate cannot become best frens as we r always in competition and sometime we like to keep some secret behind us..or sometimes i really kena shoot by arrow from behind and i didnt recognised it..when i discovered it, it already too late and sometimes cant believe that it was done by the person that i thought was my best frens...quite sad and hurt..

if d friendship cannot go further or improve anymore, i think it is better for us to go back to d starting point and jz b normal friends instead of hurting each others ...

not feeling well

i really faced a difficult life for this week suffering from throat pain, high fever and heandache...i really cannot withstand them..i jz took a rest on thursday and i felt better after that. i jz thought that i was infected by h1n1.,..as i hv all d symptoms... i jz prayed veli hard to the God asked him to give me grace and help me to recovered soon.. and God answered my prayer. ijz asked GOd so that i can have a healthy body to come to cf meeting for friday..after resting for one day..i felt better and friday..i was around 80% recovered from sick...so wonderful is my God..

3rd week of july

16/07-----3rd time visit to umaiya japanese restaurant.it can be considered as very sudden incident as i jz ask William to accompany me to Atria to buy something but somehow he ask me either i want to join for d dinner or not...without thinking too much i jz say ok...enjoy it... i ordered d salmon fish bento set.....

llafter d dinner William accompany me to Atria to buy some groceries..10s ...
study.....


17/07....
finished my biz studies test..relax..no burden anymore..oooo
tis friday...no vibe,what i can do?i ask myself ..bcz every friday night i do attend d vibe so suddenly no idea of what to do..bored...


20/07
quarrel with a&b people..really angry ..i asked a&b to get back my deposit..i jz check d amount with her,and she seen to b not happy/and yet she made a mistake by entering d electric fees twice for d same month ...so i asked her to cancel d transaction..but she said cannot..and she jz said only 20 something, eat one meal already can used up..so no need to be so care for it..and yet u r kdu scholars, u cannot made so much "noise' .wah..when she said this..i cannot tahan, and i jz said
ya,its true, since rm20+in ur eyes is nothing, so u give me back d money lah, and yet it is true that i cannot argued with kdu, but somehow d agreement doesnt said that i cannot argued with kdu workers..since i am not satisfied with u service, i jz go to d 4th floor, tell d principal of this incident, let her decide...what u hv said jz now, i hv recorded...so no need to argue anymore,...after this she said calm down and she give back d money to me...really this world already sick..y people r like this. if u good to others, people not appreatiate it but somehow want to get more from u. learn to protect myself...really dissapointed with kdu college management..totally different from what i thought b4..

and y God showed me d way to KDU and show me all this kind of things? i always asked God in my prayer,why u want me to face so many things? do i hv d ability to overcome all this kind of things? mayb these are also challenges that i need to overcome it as a step of growth.. pray hard...

durian night with william,nai lin and her fren

aiyoh...2night was my first time in life trying durian....wah the taste of durian was so nice until i cant tahan to continue to eat d durian...there was wrong mind concept of durian b4 in my mind...really enjoy the durian ...the smell and the taste made me want to continue eat them....now i am suffering after enjoyed eating d durian.i am now having headache and worry about the increase in weight...omg..we really need to sacrifice something in order to get something that we want..now i realise it..

10s to all guys for bringing me to d durian stall and eat...and such a wonderful first time with durian in my life...praise GOd....Muah....

down...do not have good mood

2day whole day after receiving the brochure about body slimming and asked to join the body slimming course.i was so down and upset. i asked myself, am i so fat? why the people asked me to do that?i really cant believe it. that mean i am growing fat now.and this bring me back the memories when i was veli fat for the past 17 years..it was a nightmare for me and everytime the fat photo i had remind me not to be so fat like that anymore or else i will not forgive myself...and yet 2day i ate a lot of things to release my sad thought.so now regret..if 2moro i become fatter, God please transform me back to normal size before ... i dont want to be a fat guy...go exercise...my next target to lose 5 kg to make my weight to be around 43-45kg...gambateh.jy jy

a good start

last wednesday after prayer meeting, i was asked by teacher advisor of kdu cf, to prepare for worship leading on friday as the people in charge cannot make it for this week as he fall sick. i was so nervous and scare as i had no such experience before.. singing alone in front of all. and yet the songs that i knew jz a few .so how can i do it? at first, i want to refuse it,later i change my mind because of these few words, it is nod depending on how clever or how good you are, but the heart and the willingness are the most important things to serve GOd.


last friday i was worship leading in my college christian fellowship meeting.i was so nervous until i cant sleep for 2 nights. and on that day, i pray very hard that i have the courage to stand in front of others to worship GOd..cannot simply main main..i did it...i finished worship leading.. although there were some mistakes or errors but i think this is a good try and good starting for me to step a big step nearer to GOd and a way to reach out and make my way to serve God more clear..God has show his will to me through the think that He want me to learn.

last friday..bbq night

it was such a wonderful night for all of us to gather at d park to have bbq. it had been such a long time i never attend this kind of activity since last year after i quit scout for the reason to prepare for spm exam. during d bbq section, we get to know more people that we never seen before...hahaha...and played some games...although it was quite tiring but somehow a sweet memory to b remember...

vandalism..sorry to all d residents living at d ss22...sorry again

learned a new lesson

2day jz a horrible day for me. everything beyond my control. i had been chased out by the landlady and this made me quite angry as she still dare enough to aske me to pay the rental fee. since i had told her i will use the deposit and go and now she did this to me. she was well pretending. inside the house, she was as fierce as tiger made me think of the old lady in the movie drag me to the hell. the aim for writing this article is not saying something bad behind others but just a way for me to voice out all my disappointment,sad and angry towards this kind of landlord and landlady. the thing that dissapointed me the most was the landlord's whole family are christian and yet the landlady serve in the children'ministry. all my goodness!!suddenly this incident made me clear that not all the christians are truely good and kind as what they have been in church. just like what ms Angeline had told me that nowadays christians in this world do not have the heart to serve and help others. they only think about themselves. i think God has His purpose for me to stay in this house. He wants to show me something and want me to learn something from this incident. just pray for a better room to live in 2moro.


10s to all my church frens, Boon Feng, William,Ying Hui,Lucy,Rachel,Brian.. all of you are really true friends for me.your love and heart towards the spritual brother are coming with action and not only just talking something and never come with action. All the best to you guys..God Bless you!!!

my life so worthless?why i need to suffer for all this kind of things?

first time i really want to kill myself as i put myself into a hell. i pay the money and suffer for all this kind of life. my life even worthless than a cat. 2day when i opeened d back door to put up my clothes to be dry up, i was accidently knock the cat that was behind the door. and the cat screammed, and my landladies came out with his husband scold me for more than 10 minutes ..why i was so careless and the cat just worhty than me？　how do i know there is a cat behind the door? and the bad luck continued to happen on me. 2night(jz now) i have been 'advice' 2 switch off the light when i go out and switch off all the light in the night. dont use laptop for such a long time just for only one reason- try to save electric...so angry that i pay such an high rental fees for such a small room and far from college and you still want to be so calculative?i really cannot tahan anymore.. i dont think i have so much patience and love for others. a 2day really a bad day for me.. i just asked my mum, is my life so worthless? why others treat me like this? i think only God can answer me..pray again..