down...do not have good mood

2day whole day after receiving the brochure about body slimming and asked to join the body slimming course.i was so down and upset. i asked myself, am i so fat? why the people asked me to do that?i really cant believe it. that mean i am growing fat now.and this bring me back the memories when i was veli fat for the past 17 years..it was a nightmare for me and everytime the fat photo i had remind me not to be so fat like that anymore or else i will not forgive myself...and yet 2day i ate a lot of things to release my sad thought.so now regret..if 2moro i become fatter, God please transform me back to normal size before ... i dont want to be a fat guy...go exercise...my next target to lose 5 kg to make my weight to be around 43-45kg...gambateh.jy jy